28 March 2011

Week 16.

This post is... surprise, surprise... LATE! I am technically now 16 weeks, 6 days, and will be 17 weeks tomorrow! But I just didn't feel like taking a photo. I ended up taking these ones because my hubby insisted, last night after dinner (so the bump is both food baby and Baby boy)! :D I've been craving spicy foods, of all things! Is Baby Boy already a little firecracker? I think so! :)

The last week I've been just exhausted, mentally and physically. I am so grateful to Jesus for healing my body and giving me this child, and yet, I didn't expect things would be so tough! The enemy has come against me so much lately, especially as my work-outs have come to a near halt. However, I hold tight to my God, as He is so much bigger than all my problems. I love 1 Timothy 4:8 when I start feeling this way- "Workouts in the gymnasium are useful, but a disciplined life in God is far more so, making you fit both today and forever."

This weekend, Kevin and I took all of the things we had cleared out of the office and what is now the baby's nursery to Goodwill, including my gigantic hoarded stash of old magasines (Runner's World, Psychology Today, Real Simple, etc). Not easy, but needed to be done. Then, Kevin decided we should try to find a white paint that will match the current wall colour, so that we could do some touch ups (especially in the nursery, since there's a big scuff). Well, we pick out a sample of "bone white" (which is what our customised house plans called for when we looked it up in our home owner's info)- yeah, THAT didn't work! It looked really brown in comparison to the white on the wall. So, fast forward: we tried two more colours (one was too blue, the other too yellow), and neither worked. ACK! We WILL figure this out, but for now... I think we're gonna end up doing the baby's room in blue. :\ Haha.

Ooo, we have our registries now, too! We are registered at Amazon.com, Target, and Babies R Us! WOOHOO! How very exciting! :) I have noticed that I have really started itching to clean and fix things up for the baby, and I'm guessing this is a slight "nesting instinct" kicking in. Ooooohhhh, boy! Haha.

But yep, as you can see, this is the real deal, folks. Baby Boy is already a chunker, and I already have quite the lump growing in my gut. I'm trusting in God that I'll be able to control and maintain my weight gain, but even while I'm dealing with this anxiety of weight gain, I'll just rest in Him. Thank you, Jesus, for saving me from anorexia nervosa and compulsive overexercising. I will never forget Your great name, and I refuse to go back. <3

3 comments:

  1. Your baby belly is sooo cute!

    I started nannying today and I've discovered that it's hard (for me) to figure out how to feed children healthy meals. That's one reason I'm ok with not being a mommy yet. One of my biggest fears is "passing on" an eating disorder.

    I am keeping you in my prayers. I bet you're going to be a great mommy.

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  2. You know, that used to be my biggest fear, too, Liv. And in fact, it's something I worked on while at Mercy Ministries. I remember Natalie asking me if my husband and I wanted children, but I said: "No, doctors said I have had anorexia nervosa too long and I can't for a really long time if at all... plus, I don't wanna pass it on." I never wanted children because I was AFRAID. But I realise now that both you and I have broken those "generational chains." We have found health and healing so that we can live FREE of "passing on" an eating disorder (or any negative trait).

    "There is no room in love for fear. Well-formed love banishes fear. Since fear is crippling, a fearful life —fear of death, fear of judgment— is one not yet fully formed in love." (1 John 4:18, MSG)

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  3. Thank you very much for the reminder. =]

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Gimme some love! <3